after another night of aimless web surfing, looking for inspiration, and reality, looking for heart deep contentment...or perhaps it is just pure romanticism that I seek...sleep evades my eyelids, my mind, my body....it is in the early dawn hours again and before I give up my chance at a night's sleep I commit these words to permanence....is there anyone else still awake, invisible, and yearning?

Friday, December 3, 2010

my first....

"Writing to you from this place feels a lot like a fantasy...Now I'm far away from you, very far, hundreds of millions of light years away. When I think of all the things between us , my mind is flooded with thoughts of only you...Pray God give me a pair of wings and to you a kiss, one thousand, ten thousand kisses. If there is a reason to live, loving you is it." - Shanghai Baby by Wei Hui

tonight is the third consecutive night I have tossed and turned in my too-small-to-contain-me twin size bed, sleepless but tired-ful. It is the third consecutive night my love has devolved to an immature five year old throwing temper tantrums because of our physical distance part.. and lately because of our spiritual and emotional chasm as well.

HEART BROKEN

that is what we both are, writhing in our heart ache miles apart....

I wish only to send him my pure untarnished love. I try floating an abundance across the midnight sky, yet it never reaches his shut door, closed off to  all advances.

with his offense up high...I am lost, unable to maneuver....sleepless but tired-ful....

can u hear the soft true whispers of my heart?